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Thinking
« Thread started on: Feb 7th, 2007, 9:52pm » |
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The night was about as dark as any night could get, no stars in the sky, the moon totally blocked out by the thick layer of clouds that seemed to stand still in the sky above. There were several demons, or more to the point, fire sprites running about out on the plains of the Demon Realm, making little fiery trails behind them as they frolicked in the night. These were the only points of light that could be seen, other than the molten lava that slugged along at an almost non-existant pace. They zigged and then zaggd, rushing up small knolls and then down them again, jumping impossible lengths, for their size, across great cracks in the earth where, during the daylight hours, you could smoke billowing out in massive clouds. A pair of dark eyes watched their every move, the look upon her face was nothing about happiness or even sad, her lips set in a look of deep thought. Kendra, the Queen of the Fallen had vowed to finally make this place her home and she was thinking a lot on her decision, as well, dealing with the fall form grace she had never dealt with before. In short, there was a lot on her mind.
Kendra sat upon a medium rock, her great feathery black wings folded half about her form, the fingers of her right hand tracing lines in the hard surface of the seat she had chosen and her left hand sat idly on her lap as she continued to watch, but not truly see the fire sprites playing out in the open space before her. She sat alone, her mind working on things of the here and now as well as the then. She loved her King, this she knew and as she thought of him a small smile graced her lips for a moment, something not seen too often on her face, but none the less, it did appear from time to time, that soft, kind smile that she only had when thoughts of Demitri would enter her mind. She even then gave a sort of half laugh over the fact that she had never even seen her smile because of him and that was a part of what she was thinking about as well. She didn’t have any reason for not allowing him close to her, it wasn’t him, it was in fact her and she knew that. She had to face what she had become and what she had done, stop trying to miss what she had and look to what she had truly gained in her fall. These things would seem to be easy to do, but they weren’t. She hated everything that had to do with Hell, or she had hated. She lost everything she held dear to herself and in less than a split second as well and only because she had once loved. Certainly, she knew it was her own choice to defy her God and that ultimately ended her up here, or rather, down there, but should it have been that way? Why couldn’t she have had things her way, was love truly that sinful an act? These questions had pounded her harshly over the years of existence she had spent in torment over what had been done. Those were the reasons she found it so hard to allow herself to love Demitri the way she wanted to. She simply couldn’t stand to loose again for the sake of love, and what was left to loose? Her heart was broken shattered in a million pieces that day and it still wasn’t healed, not after all these years.
“Oh Demitri, I am so sorry I have not been for you what I should.” She said softly, to no one.
She knew her absence bothered him, perhaps even infuriated him at times but she was afraid. She knew she was and she hated that fact. That was perhaps one of the reasons she avoided him so often, was that she was afraid of getting too close, of allowing herself to open up to him, be with him, stand beside him, love him. Yes, she loved him, but she just couldn’t seem to allow herself to let him love her, she was afraid she’d hurt him or have him taken away form her. These things she couldn’t stand to have happen again and that was why she sat, out in the dark, alone with her thoughts.
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Re: Thinking
« Reply #1 on: Feb 7th, 2007, 10:24pm » |
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Kendra sat alone on her rock in the blackness of night surrounding. A hot desert day, turned to a cold desert night as the demons of the ralm played for her while she paid no attention to anything but her own thoughts. He knew she loved him, and he knew she had her own demons to work out, he just wished he could help. Take....some part in her struggle. He loved and cared for her more than one would know.
As he sat, alone, in his chambers where just two days past they had forgiven one another and reconciled themselves Demitri sat in a cushioned, upholstered red chair with dark oaken legs. His were thoughts of loss, but loss of something he never had. He wasn't sure anymore. But he would fight for her, and for the Demon Queen when it became necessary. As he sat looking at the bare wall, the fire had gone out hours ago, he became aware of trailing, nagging thoughts. Thoughts that were ebbing on the side of his mind, they felt of fear, and some of loss. They chilled him to the core, he knew they came from Kendra. They were linked the two dark angels, ever since they said the words. It could be stopped, or forgotten, but stopping it took great skill and forgetting it took more powerful thoughts. He sent his own calming energies to her, "Darling fear not, I am yours. Nothing can take me away from you. Trust in us and nothing can part us again."
With that push he was on his way out the back door of his room. Leaping sword in hand, his thoughts wandered to premontions of saving the day and he grinned like a slack jawed idiot and pushed that from his mind. His heart was bringing herself down and he could stand it. Demitri, plumetted toward the ground as his sword was absorbed into his arm. He wished he could actually fall faster, wings folded to his back and arms pinned to his sides. The ground was steadily getting closer, but it couldn't come fast enough.
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Re: Thinking
« Reply #2 on: Feb 12th, 2007, 10:23pm » |
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“Demitri…” She whispered as she felt him, felt his thoughts, feelings. She wrapped her wings about her shoulders as if she was suddenly cold, her arms moving as well to grasp each opposite arm and then she bowed her head for a moment. She remained as such for several moments until she finally stood and began to walk away from her rock. Her great wings unfolded and she held them behind her in a relaxed position, her arms still grasping their opposite. She walked towards where she felt him, though she didn’t realize she was doing so, she was just sm0ply walking, unconscious of her direction or destination, her mind still turning over things as she moved.
Kendra stopped, at a place that would be just to the right of where her King plummeted to the ground. She didn’t look up, nor did she even so much as realize he was falling swiftly towards her, she simply stood, arms crossed, wings settled behind her back in that relaxed manner, he mind in a fury of thoughts, her onyx eyes shining with liquid sorry and pain.
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« Reply #3 on: Feb 17th, 2007, 01:09am » |
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He saw her moving towards his destination, but that only served make him wish he could fall faster. Demitri's only thoughts were to protect Kendra, and make her feel better, and that gravity was a bitch. As the ground loomed closer, and thing could be discerned with clarity enough to find a clear spot to land, the Fallen rolled himself upright so his feet were below him and gave one giant flap of his great midnight wings. Even from that height the down force kicked up a whirl wind around Kendra, as he slowed himself to a manageable rate of speed.
Her hair was flying through the air around her, doing its own dance of fire. Kendra, looked vulnerable, but always so beautiful was his wife. Full of sorry and pain as she was Demitri was coming to her. There was nothing that would stop him. As her hair swirled around her, in the great barrage of wind sand and small rocks, Demitri hit the dry cracked land scape with a unimaginable force sending out evenly distributed lines of crack for miles, where as at the red epicenter of his landing several circles getting large like dropping a pebble in a pond surrounded him and great indent he left in the stone. Demitri, waited for a second until the shaking stopped, he thought he may have caused an earthquake, then he stood and made his way through the cold chill of space between himself and Kendra. She stood no more than just outside the last expanding circle to his left, with a cracks running along either side of her.
Demitri wrapped his wife in his wings and pulled her gently close to him, he kissed her lips, and forehead, before gently speaking to her. "I felt you, my love, I know you didn't want me to. But I did, please talk to me....we can solve whatever is on your mind."
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« Reply #4 on: Mar 6th, 2007, 12:04am » |
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There was a great rush of wind and rocks, sand and other tiny objects began to spiral around her as her hair jumped into the fray, dancing about in the wind. She closed her eyes for the first few moments and tilted her head to the side, as if caressing something in the wind, and she was. She was caressing with her cheek, his scent that was carried to her on the wind. She nearly smiled, but not quite it came out as more of a content look than anything else, but in her current mood, even a simple content look was desirable compared to the saddens that was there again only a few moments later.
Kendra steadied herself as the ground began to shake violently, her wings drew up and out for further support and balance. He certainly knew how to make his presence known, that much was clear. This thought could have nearly brought a smile to her lips, but it did not.
Next thing she knew, she was being wrapped in his wings, her own sliding back down to rest against her back and then his lips on hers. The moment his lips left her own, her head moved forward and rested against his shoulder, her face turned down.
“No, Demitri, it is quite all right. You can’t help feeling me, anymore than I can you, do not be sorry for a single thing.” She told him in a soft and very quiet voce as her arms moved up to wrap themselves under his own where she would now be holding his shoulders from the back. “I am trying.” She then told him simply. “Trying to be what I should for you…” She let it trail off, talking to him wasn’t ever tat easy, and that was one of the things she wanted so badly to be able to do without hesitation, but even as she was trying, she found it was still quite hard.
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Re: Thinking
« Reply #5 on: Mar 20th, 2007, 11:30pm » |
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He held her close in his arms, his entrance didn't matter, he just wanted to be near her as quickly as possible. His forehead leaning gently against hers as she spoke to him. Hard as it may be for her to do so, he would be patient with her, as long as it took.
"You have nothing to fear my love. Just speak what is on your mind. I cannot be that bad a listener can I?" He spoke to her quietly as she spoken to him, still holding her warmly to him. "Kendra, you love me yes?"
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« Reply #6 on: Mar 21st, 2007, 12:19am » |
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Kendra remained silent for a few moments after his question, she searched her mind, over and over again, though truly, she had no reason to, it was her heart that spoke loudest to her at such a question, even if her mind wanted to get in the way.
“Yes, I do Love you My King.” She replied quietly. “More than you could know.” She added, now nuzzling her head closer into his shoulder than before. Her eyes suddenly began to sting as she held back the tears that wished to fall. She didn’t want to cry, didn’t want to feel defeated in as much as she truly was. “I am afraid of loosing everything again, afraid if I love you, you will go away, be taken away…” She then told him. “Sounds foolish, I know., but it is my greatest fear.” She finished, now clenching her eyes tightly to stay the stinging tears.
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« Reply #7 on: Mar 21st, 2007, 01:42am » |
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Demitri just stood holding her, never expecting such a turn of events. He rested his hand on the back of her neck and hugged her tighter to him. "This is a very valid fear my darling. Never foolish. But even if you do not love me, I may still be destroyed, or taken away. But knowing I have your love, it will be much harder to do."
The Fallen held is queen tight to him in a very gentle embrace, quite uncharacteristic for his size. "No one will take from you. I promise."
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